That Time Again

The rain falls.
Raindrops and wind in her hair, her face.
Her jeans soggy wet and cold.
The night arrived quickly.
The love of jazz around me.
Reminise about the past week.
Worry about pieces of papers that determines the outcome of your life.
Concern about those you love.
Helpless in support.
Declining motivation.
Push you to the edge.
Falling without wings.

Overthinking. Overworried. Over-stressed.

We just make a fool of ourselves sometimes.
We forget about the people around us.
Especially when your mind plays tricks on you and you regret saying or doing all of that before.

Then we thank those souls that stood by us.
Whether we were being silly or being an inconsiderate idiot.
Although you do wonder why would anyone want to stick by such a difficult yet complicating individual.

Thank you and sorry.
As much as they are humble words.
Sometimes one hopes to find a better word than that, one that means more than that.
More than empathy, apologies and remorse.

Autumn

Its the beginning of autumn.
Time does fly.
But so does experiences and life.
Change.
Do we really change with the seasons?

Sometimes life portrays a sort of contradiction.
Sometimes to forget and enjoy we indulge in a big tub of ice-cream and chocolate by the television, as guilty as it is.
We feel incompetent at times of confrontation.
Tied down by the heavy chain of the human mind, behaviour, emotions,
We are force to face the storm despite flying blades and red bloody pathways.
Eventually we will get through with divine power, or more or less hopefully.

There are snapshots of this and that.
Coffee and chocolate
Love and hate.
Happy and sad.
Defined and uncertain.
Words and pictures.
Feelings and actions.
Hugs and kisses.
You can have either one or both in a single moment.
Each item has an attached meaning, visualization, memory.

Our hearts sink into melodrama whether we have it all or not.
There may be blue skies today but maybe not tomorrow.





So I decided to go out, walk in the park and savour the day.
Until I find the answer, this shall be for now.