Smooth Jazz+Chilly Rain+Hot Green Tea

So here I am...
On a rainy day...
With a cup of hot green tea and jazz playing in the background.
There is something about rainy days that makes me inspired or some sort.

It's the end of a long month holiday and back to the torture but nonetheless enjoyable life of uni.
Back to seeing familiar faces and the usual place for coffee.
Back to meeting new people.
Back to starting another 4 months of the semester.
Studying, learning, experiencing, thinking, debating, and cramming for exams and assignments.

The simplicity of enjoying a cup of hot tea in the chilly rain does give you that bit of time to reminise about life so far...
The people I've crossed paths with.
The events that were upon me.
Thinking about nothingness.
Where they all for a reason?
Was there a reason why my friendship with another didn't connect for long?
Maybe it wasn't meant to be.
Was there a reason why an attaction of sorts didn't blossomed between two people?
Maybe it wasn't meant to be.
Why didn't I end up buying that top I always wanted.
Oh, that was because probably I felt too guilty to spend anymore money that day.
Let's scrape that.

It's easy to appreciate and enjoy the simplicity of life.
Watching a good old movie with friends at home.
Having coffee and laughs at Starbucks.
Just being able to be in the company of others.
What about complexities and complicating part of life?
Like how people have different views on how long distance relationships would work.
Some take that risk and some don't.
Or how walking and cycling is different but same in a way it still takes you to your destination.
Or maybe those that seem that they are meant to be are never together.
A simple decision of yes or no becomes over-complicated when considering other external and internal factors.

The dynamics of simplicity and complexity of life still makes me think a whole lot. That some things are just hard to see through.

Want and Have...

Is there a difference between wanting and having something?

When you want it, you strive for it, you desire it.
So you find all ways and loopholes to acquire it.
When you've already got it (yes, you appreciate it!!), you have to work hard at maintaining what you own or even giving up later having to find out it wasn't all that good to have it after all.

It could be an object, a person, a dream, an ambition...
You get the point.

How do you know if you are meant to own something? That you were made for a special purpose. Yes, everyone can do anything but I also believe that each and every individual has their own specific traits and natural talents.
What do you do when you lose it? You can consciously see it drifting away and you're left unsure whether it is really happening. It might be an illusion but yet you can touch it.

What is a dream if it can't be fulfilled? What use of an interest if you can't expand that into passion? I wonder at times, when I've worked so hard for something, when I'm so near to the finish line, was it worth all the effort? Sometimes you get pulled away when you are so close. At other times, you reached the finish line only to have everything else get out of control.

Now I'm faced with 3 roads, and the road less travelled has spikes with a grizzly bear waiting to eat me. That would stop me dead in my tracks. The other 2 has me smooth sailing but I would probably blame myself for not being eaten or walking into those spikes.

Does this post even add up to what I'm trying to say? O___o

First Day of Work and Last Day of Football Fever

France lost? NOOOooo~~~ !!!

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And plus the football finals was on my first day of work. Oh joy~
Still deprived of sleep and having a multi-tasking job.
Way to go.
But it was a good match. Lots of near goals but one that ended up in a penalty shoot-out. Which I think France didn't do to well a job as they should. What am I saying? The results are all out on the newa already.

Oh yea. I still gotta decide on my major. It isn't fun. Taxing my brain.

How does one decide with unknown consequences for taking such risks?
I know the risks but I also know what I'm able to achieve especially academically.
And its not looking pretty.

Wrong, right and whatever

Just realised this blog has been dead.
Hmm...Maybe I should take off the tag board.

So yeah, just going to have a short post because I think I am about to blow-up anything I can find and slap that person I see in the mirror. Having a bad day probably. Alright, make that dayS. Not that I would dwell in it long. But that is what a blog is for, no? I have this really bad feeling in my gut and proving things have gone wrong and un-smooth for the past few days. From uni stuff to personal self reflection to overthinking. Thinking was probably just a phase every once in a while only during the holidays it seems. I even sent wrong messeges to the wrong people in multiple chatrooms. Oh joy~ Now my shoulders hurt from skiing and I'm deprived of sleep. Don't tell me to sleep early because my sleeping patterns are pretty much screwed. By the time I get it back on track, uni will be starting. So I couldn't be bothered at the moment.

If only frustration and time could be something tangible. Then, I would probably just burn them all and make them disappear. Hmm, apparently writing this is not helping me. Argh! Whatever already. Oh, and there is no 'right' in this post.

Are you bored reading this yet? I apologize.

Birthday Wish

A rather early post...
I'm glad and thankful enough to have my dad here to celebrate his birthday as a family, since I didn't go back this holiday. =) (and cause he almost couldn't come due to heavy workload)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD!!!~~~ XD
The greatest guy in my life.
Forever will be.

Lots of love.
I wonder what will we be eating tonight. Hmmmm.....

Whattt???!!!

A random rant...

I can't believe...

BRAZIL LOST!!!!

Argh!! =(
Howwwwww.......??
Bleh. =__=